Wallpaper
I walked thru a store; we used to shop;
your memory in silent pursuit;
drowning in tears; that wouldn’t stop;
your voice, still remained mute.
Although I knew you couldn’t be there;
my thoughts remained convoluted;
you can’t be gone; you must be somewhere;
my pain was so deeply rooted.
I soon left that store; still empty handed;
they didn’t sell what I needed;
for, it was your love; my soul demanded;
I walked out; feeling defeated.
For nearly four decades; you were my light;
we challenged the darkness, together;
your death was the climax to an endless night;
we had thought we would live forever.
While driving home; the darkness returned;
all memories were filled with sorrow;
circumstance and destiny; both confirmed;
but, who can I blame, tomorrow?
I continue to live in that darkness; alone;
in a house our bankruptcy built;
left behind; was your dream home;
and memories laced with guilt.
I feel like wallpaper; with no place to go;
with such love, I want to be giving;
but, my life has melted; like fallen snow;
and I no longer feel I am living.
Monty 4/19/24. # 2,077