Wondering
It’s dawn, once again; and I awaken;
tho the emptiness still remains;
I feel, by destiny, I’ve been forsaken;
wondering who’s holding the reins.
I feel as though I’ve lost all control;
an escaped prisoner; still at large;
I feel desperation, within my soul;
wondering who’s now in charge.
I’ve spent much of a lifetime wondering;
the truth of reality;
wisdom requires hours of pondering;
what is my destiny.
Is reality governed by mere circumstance;
or do I, indeed, have free will;
will I ever again feel love and romance;
or, am I divorced from love’s thrill?
Consciousness, somehow, remains the same;
this kingdom still lives on;
even to my life; death has laid claim;
someday I too will be gone.
God created each, of us, to live as a pair;
now all my happiness is gone;
emptiness has left my soul in despair;
wondering how life can go on.
Consciousness shall forever live on;
thou the soul keeps pondering;
only death can bring a new dawn;
while I remain, just wondering.
Monty 10/24/24. # 2,405