Rebuffed Again
In many ways I’ve become very unique;
from others rejection; I seem exempt;
in my many failures; I usually self critique;
my greatest challenge; self contempt.
Some seem to exude an automatic attration;
others willingly accept what they say;
it always seems I get a far different reaction;
very seldom, do others, see my way.
Perhaps it’s because I have a style of passivity;
nearly always wanting to please;
self confidence has rarely been my proclivity;
speaking as tho on my knees.
Other times, I can be very abrupt and decisive;
when debating, I will show no mercy;
discussing complexities, I become incisive;
I have no fears of controversy.
Unfortunately I am my own worst critic;
I have a great fear of rejection;
my thoughts of myself, are almost acidic;
deep within; I hide, for protection.
In matters of love or personal interaction;
I find openness and honesty tough;
thinking others will seize the slightest infraction;
and I will become rebuffed.
Whatever we project; most others will see;
whatever situation we find ourself in;
my great fear, is that others see through me;
and, I’ll find myself rebuffed again.
Monty 12/8/24. # 2,497